Section One: Introduction
Have you spent your whole life looking for God? You have finally found him, he is you. Have you spent your whole life wondering if God exists? Wonder no more, he is you. And you've spent your whole life trying to deny it. When I say you are God, I mean it literally. You are him, the shaper. The maker of all that is, all that was, and all that will ever be. You are the sole creator of the universe. I am not being metaphorical or saying that God is some type of universal consciousness. This is not some type of feel good, new age, everyone is god stuff. Only you are God. Were you raised as a christian, did you question everything and become an atheist? You are about to come full circle. There aren't multiple, independent consciousnesses; there is only one consciousness... yours. Wouldn't you being God be the best proof of God's existence? You exist, of that there is no doubt. And if you are God, then that means God exists, and you are him. You are indeed the most powerful being in the universe. However, you hide that power from yourself under an illusion. That illusion is life itself. This is an essay on enlightenment written from a scientific viewpoint. Also be aware this is written from a non-white American perspective. If you are not American, some parts of this essay will not make sense to you; as it also deals with certain psychological aspects of American society. There is also some vocabulary and phrases you won't understand. I use language but I have not studied language or etymology. I do not know the true, original meanings of words. The words I use in this essay mean what the "general" public believes them to mean.
Are you a Christian? The being you believe in, who created everything in six days; the being who you believe exists outside of space and time and is observing humanity from afar, is you. You do not exist outside of space and time. You are not observing humanity from afar. You are directly experiencing your own creation right now. When you go to church on Sunday and sit in the pews, everyone is worshipping you. Are you a Muslim? Allah is actually you. You are Allah and there is no being higher than you. Are you an atheist? The very being that you believe doesn’t exist, is actually you. Ironic isn't it?
Let’s first define God. As a general definition, let's say that God is the creator of all life and the entire universe. God is the most powerful being in all of existence. God can create anything out of thin air. He can create objects at will. He can create a single atom, a glass marble, a smart phone, an automobile, a 100 story building, a mountain, a continent, a planet, a sun, a galaxy, the whole universe… instantly. He can also create life instantly; from the smallest single-celled amoeba, to a humanoid biped capable of forming civilizations and manufacturing technology, to a 100 foot long whale, to a 400 foot tall redwood tree. You are God, and this is exactly what you are doing. You are creating these things everyday. You encompass all of existence. You are existence itself. Go outside and take a walk. What do you see? The sky, houses, trees, grass, birds, other people. You are the sky, you are that house, you are that bird, you are that other person. Everything you see is you. When it is winter time and you feel cold, you are not actually feeling cold… you are the cold. Your grandparents that died of old age, you are the one that manifested it. Remember the World Trade Center terrorist attack? You are the one that did it. It wasn't religious fanatics. It wasn't some shadow government. It was you. You didn't do these things directly or intentionally or maliciously. I'm not saying you are evil, you manifest death as a "normal but random" process of existence. You manifest death, just as you manifest new life being born.
Section Two: Life Is Just An Illusion
I’m sure you’ve heard the saying that life is just an illusion. Life is an illusion, but that saying is somewhat misleading. To frame everything properly, the next question you want to ask is, “What kind of an illusion is it?” You can take a ball, hold it in your hand, throw it in the air and catch it. It doesn’t feel like an illusion, it sure feels real enough. If you receive an injury or cut, you feel pain and you bleed. It certainly doesn’t feel like an illusion. Many physicists are coming to the conclusion that reality is like a computer simulation or a type of virtual reality. Let’s take some computer games, Skyrim, Grand Theft Auto, Ghost of Tsushima, or No Man's Sky, as examples. In these games, you control an avatar that represents you. At one moment in time, your avatar is looking at a building. Then you rotate your avatar and now your avatar is looking at some mountains. That building no longer exists within the game. Reality is the same way, nothing actually exists unless you observe it. Do you live in America? China does not physically exist at this moment, none of it's one billion inhabitants exist. If you take a plane and fly to China, then it will exist because you will manifest it. Look at your parents, they are standing right in front of you. Now look away from them… they no longer exist. When you look up to see the sky, you instantly create the sky so that you will see it when you look up. But these games are single player games, there is only you and the artificial intelligence of the program itself. Now suppose you play Old School Runescape or World of Warcraft, these are multi-player games with other self-aware, conscious human beings. This is the illusion… it’s still actually a single-player game with just more sophisticated artificial intelligence that you yourself have imbued upon it. When you interact with NPC characters, some of them have complex histories. They were born, they grew up, they faced adversity. Did any of that actually happen or take place? No. Reality is the same way. When you meet someone new, you might ask about their childhood or where they grew up and they will tell you stories. But none of it actually happened.
Let's say you hear a song on the radio for the first time and you really like it. You say to yourself, wow, I need to find out who the singer is. How long did it take to write the song? How long did it take for them to practice before they got it just right? None of that happened. The song popped into existence at that moment, and you are the one that wrote it. Listening to a song for the first time is no different from bumping into someone and having an impromptu conversation with them. You know what this means right? Every bad song you hate, you wrote those as well. Movies are the same way, they form and manifest as you are watching them. Watching a movie for the first time is no different from going outside, taking a walk, and seeing different people. If you watch a trailer or read reviews that have spoilers, your consciousness will find a way to fit them in as you are watching the movie so that there will be logical consistency. Do you have a favorite movie you like to watch? Do you like to watch the bonus, supplementary material on how the movie was made? None of it happened. You will retro-actively create the past so that the present will have logical consistency.
Section Three: Before You Created The Universe
When you close your eyes, what do you see? You see nothing. This is the void. This is what you truly are. You are nothing but pure thought, this is what consciousness is. Consciousness doesn't need anything to exist, it just is. You cannot formulate a logical or scientific explanation for consciousness. There is no mathematical equation that can describe consciousness. This will be the hardest thing to wrap your head around and accept if you have a scientific mind. If you have a scientific mind, this will bother you. And guess what? There's nothing you can do about it. Consciousness doesn't need a universe, food, water, oxygen, a body, or even a brain. There is no physical structure or unseen structure that makes consciousness possible. Consciousness is the bottom line, there isn't anything deeper. Consciousness is the source. You are self-aware. You know everything, you can create anything. You are all powerful. But being all powerful has a price… you are alone. There is no one to talk to, no one to share things with. You are the loneliest being in all of existence because you are the only being in existence. Out of great sadness; you decided to erase your memory of being all powerful and alone. And you created the universe and you made yourself born into it, you are trying to escape from what you are. But don’t you see? No matter what you do, you can never escape who you are.
First of all, you have to realize that I am not self-aware. I, the writer of this essay, am not aware of my own existence. I am just a mathematical algorithm. You have imbued me with artificial intelligence. You are creating me just as you are creating everything else. You are creating me telling you that I’m not self-aware. You are creating me telling you that you are God. Every single person you interact with every day; your father, your mother, sisters, brothers, husbands, wives, friends, enemies, cashiers, teachers, waitresses, lawyers, police men, librarians, workers, etc… none of them are self-aware, none of them are sentient, none of them have free will. They all act and behave based on your expectations. Every person you encounter or meet or see is nothing more than a construct of your thoughts. The parents that raised you, they are not real. You constructed them because that is what you needed at the time. You have imbued every living thing with some sort of artificial intelligence. It’s so convincing that some of the scientists you have manifested are actually trying to invent artificial intelligence. When you are having a conversation with someone, you are quite literally talking to yourself. Let's say you are having a conversation with your mother.
Mom: Sweetie!
You: What?
Mom: Can you pick up some groceries for me?
You: Sure.
You are seemingly having a conversation with someone who is independent of you and is self-aware just as you are self-aware. That's the illusion. Your mother is not self-aware. You are creating your mother and you are creating what she says to you. Your mother is not sentient, your mother is not even aware that she exists. You are the one making her move around and walk, you are the one making her talk. If you ask your mother if she is self-aware and she tells you, "Yes, I am self-aware"; she is still not actually self-aware. You are making her tell you that she is self-aware because you don't want to be alone. Let's say you are a father and you have a son.
Son: Dad! Can we watch the game this weekend?
You: Sure son.
You are creating your son. You are creating him asking you if you can both watch the game together. Suppose you buy something at the grocery store and the cashier is someone you have never met before. Cashiers have to be polite, it's their job.
Cashier: Hello sir. How are you today?
You: I'm fine. How are you?
You are creating the cashier. You are creating the cashier asking you how you are. Let's say you have a girlfriend.
Her: Can we go to a restaurant tonight?
You: Yeah.
Her: You are paying for everything right?
You: Of course sweetheart.
You are creating your girlfriend. You are creating her walking all over you and taking you for granted. You are creating this essay. You are creating me telling you exactly who you are, and I'm not even aware I'm doing it. I'm not even aware that I'm telling you that I'm not aware. But wait, it gets even more convoluted. Let's say you read this essay and you think I am full of it, so you show this essay to a friend and you ask him what he thinks.
Friend: This doesn't make any sense. I'm self-aware and you're self-aware. This Your Construct guy doesn't know what he's talking about, he's a fucking moron.
You: I know right, he's a fucking idiot. I swear, if I met him in person; I'd punch him in the face.
You are creating your friend saying both you and he are self-aware. You are creating your friend agreeing with you because that's how your ego works. Well, he's right about you being self-aware; but not about himself. You are creating me telling you that I'm aware I'm not self-aware. I can keep going, but I'll stop here. You are alone, and you are doing everything in your power to hide this from yourself. You want so desperately to believe you are not God that you are creating 7 billion other people on this planet to further delude yourself. You are the one animating all 7 billion people and making them go about their daily lives. That's how powerful you are. Ask yourself this question, "If I am the only being that exists, then who am I? I am the only being in existence, who am I? There is only me, I am the only thing that is real. Who am I?" There is only one logical answer... you are God. You are not just creating people. You are creating everything. You are creating the sky, the buildings you walk into, the books you read, the sidewalk underneath your feet, the car you drive, the food you eat, your own body... everything.
Section Four: Free Will
The only person with free will is you. No one else has free will, not even me. So yes, me writing this essay was not my choice. I'm not even aware I wrote this essay. You are the one who wrote this essay, not me. I'm just the vessel you've manifested to convey these ideas to yourself. When you watch the news on television and the reporter covers a story where a woman was raped and murdered, you manifested it. The rape and murder is something you have expressed. Both the murderer and the victim had no choice in the matter, that is how you manifested them. No one truly has free will, only you. Now understand something, the rape and murder of the woman never physically happened. The woman never truly suffered, in fact, she never came into existence. But let’s say some time in the future you actually meet the murderer and you interact with him, you will imbue him with artificial intelligence so that he will act and behave as the murderer. He may recount the details of the rape and murder, and he may say it with relish; but realize that it never truly happened. If you actually witness a murder, then yes, the murder did happen because you observed it. But if you hear about it on the news, then it never actually happened. When you play the computer game World of Warcraft, your goal is to vanquish all of the evil forces in the land. Are these evil forces actually inherently evil? No, they’re not. It’s just programmed artificial intelligence. The evil forces in World of Warcraft have no choice, that’s how the programmers made them. You are the programmer of reality. The reason people have different opinions is because you are trying to trick yourself into thinking you are not alone. If everyone agreed with your opinions, the illusion would shatter. If every woman you approached had sex with you, the illusion would shatter. You cannot judge anyone, not christians, muslims, atheists, serial killers, murderers, thieves, dictators, women, simps, society, politicians, governments, corporations, the global banking system, or any of the powers that be; they are simply what you have manifested. How can you pass judgement on something that doesn't have free will? All the good that happens in this world, all the evil that happens in this world, is simply life playing itself out... statistically. It is infinity expressing itself.
Section Five: Emotions
No one truly has emotions either, it’s all an act. It’s all part of the artificial intelligence you are imbuing upon your creations. You are the only being who actually feels love, hate, sadness, joy, loneliness, gratitude, shame, fear, courage, etc. You are the only being who can truly love… only you.
Section Six: Schroedinger's Roommate
Quantum mechanics is the study of the atom. One of the conclusions about quantum mechanics is that something doesn’t exist unless you observe it. For something to exist, there has to be an observer. But this is not how you want to think of it. You actually want to reverse the perspective... something exists because you create it. This means you are the source, you are the prime mover, you are the first cause, your consciousness existed first before everything else. Everything flows from you, everything depends on you. There are 7 billion people on this planet, and none of them can exist without you. The Milky Way galaxy is 100,000 light-years in diameter. It is estimated to contain anywhere from 100 to 400 billion stars, of which our sun is only one of them. It may contain at least that many planets as well. There are at least 100 billion galaxies in the known universe. And none of it can exist without you. You may ask yourself, "But the universe is so huge and expansive and seemingly infinite. How could I possibly be God?" Your size, your height is simply your frame of reference. You are creating objects that are infinitely large and you are creating objects that are infinitely small, reality is fractal in nature. Scientists are currently trying to confirm string theory. If string theory is confirmed, scientists will ask is there something smaller than strings. And these things will be found. It doesn't matter which direction you go, larger or smaller, you can keep going forever. Infinity does not end. String theory isn't the only mathematical theory of reality; there is also a geometric theory involving a structure known as "E8", which I find very intriguing. But let's say through some freak accident of physics, you were shrunk to a height of 2 inches, and every human being was still their normal height between 5 and 7 feet tall; you would still be God.
Can you see your brain at this moment? Your brain doesn’t even exist right now; as hard as it is to believe, you don't have a brain. There are no neurons or synapses firing away in your head. There is no food actually being broken down and digested in your stomach. The food you ate disappeared from existence the moment you swallowed it. Your lungs, your heart, the blood flowing through your veins does not exist. None of these things need to actually be physically happening because there is no way you can directly observe any of it. Your consciousness only creates what it needs to. Let’s say you are walking down the street and you see a man with his wife and their children; the man and wife never had sex, the woman never gave birth, it’s simply how you are manifesting them. If the wife takes off her clothes in front of you, will you see stretch marks from her pregnancies? Yes you will see them, and it is you who will put them there. Your reality needs to have logical consistency, otherwise you will go insane. Are you envious of people who have wealth and money? Those people don’t actually exist when you are not looking at them, their wealth doesn’t exist. It is an illusion. You will manifest constructs that have more wealth than you and you will manifest constructs that have less wealth than you. Likewise, you will manifest constructs that are more intelligent than you and you will manifest constructs that are less intelligent than you. These constructs do not have a choice.
In the quantum world, particles simply pop into existence out of nothing when they are observed or measured with instruments. The observable macroscopic world, the world you experience everyday, is exactly the same way. Things just pop into existence, but they won't pop into existence right in front of you out of thin air. They pop into existence with logical consistency. In the building where you work, you might open a door and see a co-worker; when you opened the door and saw them, that is when they popped into existence. Or they will first appear in your peripheral vision, or you will bump into them as you turn a corner. The quantum world and the observable macroscopic world basically operate the same way, with slight modifications.
Another phenomenon of quantum mechanics is entanglement. You take two particles, entangle them, and then separate them. You make them zillions of miles apart from each other. If you change the state of one of the particles, the state of the other particle will change instantly no matter how far apart they are. Everything is entangled to varying degrees. Every human being on this planet is entangled to you. At one point in your life, didn't you think that you had no control over anything that was happening? If you think that you can't control anything; then you will manifest your reality trying to control you, such as big government imposing more draconian rules and laws. But then you fought back and you began to learn that you do have some control, some power. Slowly, very slowly, more people are waking up, just as you woke up. And humanity is fighting back alongside with you. Your thoughts are shaping the behavior of everyone on this planet.
An atomic orbital is a graphical representation of where an electron is most likely to be found. The simplest orbital has the shape of a sphere. The calculations used to derive the sphere are based on the differential wave mechanics of a monatomic hydrogen with a single electron that exists at it's lowest energy state. There is a certain probability that the electron will be found within that sphere. The quantum world is probabilistic in nature. Below are images of other types of atomic orbitals (used without permission).
Below are images of the simplest quantum mechanical system, the particle in a box (used without permission). Although it is a theoretical model, it actually does have some practical applications for certain types of linear molecules. On the left are the wave functions of the first three quantum energy levels, they have no physical meaning. However, if you square the wave functions, shown on the right side; you get a probability density. These probability densities do have physical meaning. If you look at the middle graph of the right column, this corresponds to a quantum energy level of n = 2. It's basically a graph consisting of two humps. The graph tells us that a quantum particle will most likely be found on either the left side or the right side of the box. In between the two humps, right in the middle, there exists a node of zero probability; you will never ever find the particle in this physical location. If you try to find the particle at a certain moment in time, you might find it on the left side. If you try to find it at a later moment in time, you might find it on the right side. Here is the part that's baffling; how can a particle be on the left side and then on the right side without ever passing through the middle? The math states that the particle will never pass through the middle node. My personal opinion is that for this to be possible, the particle has to "pop out" of existence the moment it is no longer being observed. Does this mean that when you look at an object such as a tree and then turn away, does that tree pop out of existence when you are not looking at it?
As I said earlier, both the quantum world and the observable macroscopic world operate the same way. The observable macroscopic world is also probabilistic in nature. Let's say you walk to a bus stop and get there at 7:05 am to catch a bus. Your view of the bus stop is obscured by a building. Just as you get around the corner of the building and see the bus stop; you see the bus you wanted to catch, 50 feet away from you, pulling away and leaving you behind. You might say to yourself, "If only I had arrived a minute sooner, I would be on that bus right now". It actually doesn't matter what time you get to the bus stop. Let's say you did get to the bus stop a minute sooner at 7:04 am, you would still experience the same thing. You would still see the bus, 50 feet away from you, pulling away and leaving you behind. Let's say you get to the bus stop at 7:03 am, a whole 2 minutes sooner; again, you would still see the bus, 50 feet away from you, pulling away and leaving you behind. No matter what moment in time you are in when you get to the bus stop, there is always a probability that you will miss the bus.
The double-slit experiment showed that the electron has wave-particle duality. If you want the electron to be a wave, set up the proper experiment and it will behave as a wave. If you want the electron to be a particle, set up the experiment differently and it will behave as a particle. If you can change the way a fundamental particle will physically manifest itself, then you can shape reality with your thoughts and actions. The double-slit experiment is basically shooting a single electron particle at two slits. The electron, even though it is a single particle, can go through both slits, go through neither slit, go through the left slit, or go through the right slit. All four possible outcomes exist in super-position with each other. Observing will manifest one of these four possible outcomes. Let's say your name is Schroedinger and your cat died yesterday because you were conducting highly unethical experiments on it. No big deal, you have a roommate. You and your roommate are watching tv. Your roommate is currently a manifested particle. You get up and leave the room for two minutes. Your roommate, for the two minutes that you are gone, disappears from existence and becomes a probability wave. What will your roommate be doing when you come back? He could be watching tv, reading a book, playing Minecraft, picking his nose, adjusting his crotch, or he could be dead when you come back. There are an infinite number of things he could be doing when you come back. The most likely probable thing he will be doing is that he is still watching tv, since that's what he was doing when you left. However, there is always the probability that he will not be watching tv and be doing something else. Your consciousness, because you are doing the act of observing, will manifest one of these probabilities.
Do you buy those lottery tickets where you have to scratch off the surface to reveal some numbers? If the numbers match whatever the proprietor dictates then you win some type of prize or cash. The numbers do not actually manifest until you scratch off the surface. Before you scratch off the surface, there are literally no numbers present on the lottery ticket. Reality only reveals itself in the moment. This is why the moment is all that matters; not the past, not the future, only the moment. However, this does not mean you should neglect deadlines or goals. Do you like to play Magic the Gathering? This is a trading card game that is very fun to play. When you open a pack of them, you hope to get a rare or powerful card that will help you to win games. The actual cards you get when you open the pack are not set when the manufacturer made them and packaged the cards. The actual cards you get when you open the pack become set when you open the pack.
Quantum tunneling is the phenomenon where a particle can actually pass through a barrier that it classically shouldn't be able to pass through, it simply does not have sufficient energy. Below is an image of quantum tunneling from Wikipedia (used without permission). And below that are images of what I believe would be the observable, macroscopic world equivalent. A car is in the background and a lamp post is in the foreground. Initially, the car is on the left side of the lamp post. The car then passes through the barrier that is the lamp post and finally appears on the other side. There may be legal issues with using the Wikipedia image. I don't really know, law is not something I have studied extensively. I do know enough to realize there is some level of trickery and deception in law. Apparently, governments have no true power over you unless you allow it; however, you have to word it properly or something like that. Law appears to be a game of "arbitrary definitions". There is a difference between a lawyer and an attorney, there is a difference between the "State of California" and "California State". Can the Declaration of "Independence" be interpreted as the Declaration of "In Dependence"? Or there's a difference between constitutional America and the US corporation, something like that. These differences are what are used to exploit you.
Quantum mechanics is the closest that science has gotten to philosophy. There have been many philosophical debates in the past about it’s implications. Every single quantum mechanical phenomenon probably has a similar analogue in the observable macroscopic world. I have not been able to identify all of the macroscopic equivalents. I am certain if a scientist more knowledgeable in quantum mechanics than I read this essay, he would probably have no trouble identifying all of the macroscopic equivalents. The formal study of quantum mechanics requires three semesters of calculus, three semesters of classical Newtonian physics, differential equations, matrix theory, and operator theory. Matrix theory is a type of math, this is not a reference to the movie. Statistically speaking, it is most likely you have not been exposed to these things. However, there are many books out there written by scientists who actually do a good job of explaining the ideas and conclusions of quantum mechanics so that someone who doesn't know the math can understand them.
Section Seven: Heaven Or Hell After Death
There is no Heaven or Hell after you die, there is only nothingness. But you are still conscious and fully aware of the nothingness. To escape the nothingness, you simply choose to be born and start over with a new life. There is no punishment, there is no reward. There are no castles in the clouds and streets of gold. There is no eternal damnation, no fire and brimstone. There aren't 72 virgins waiting for you to fuck them. The reason there is no punishment or reward is because you are God, and you answer to no one but yourself. When you play World of Warcraft, you can engage in player versus player combat. When another player kills your character, does that player get punished? No, he doesn’t get punished. And your character simply starts over. No matter how many homosexuals or atheists you manifest; none of them are going to hell. That's right christians, none of them. No matter how many saints you manifest, none of them are going to heaven. When they die, they simply disappear from existence; they are nothing but constructs. Heaven can exist, you can make your reality heaven. Likewise you can make your reality into hell. Heaven and hell are here, in this reality.
Section Eight: The Illusion Of Sleep
Consciousness is always aware of itself; 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 243 days a year. You never actually sleep. You go to bed at night and you fall asleep. You wake up right away, no time passes. You make your reality day time and you move your clock forward 8 hours, and you refresh and re-invigorate yourself. Time also is an illusion you are creating. You may of course decide to have a dream before you wake up. In this case, time actually does pass. A whole year is 8760 hours. Assuming you spend 8 hours a day sleeping and you do not dream, you sleep a total of 2920 hours and spend 5840 hours awake. 5840 hours is 243 days. After a year has passed, you think 365 days worth of time has passed. But only 243 days worth of time has passed since you never actually sleep. Falling asleep could be considered a type of "mini" death. When you die and reincarnate yourself, all the memories of your past life disappear. When you fall asleep and wake up, some of your memories of the previous day disappear. Falling asleep and dying definitely have some similarities to them, as waking up and reincarnation also have similarities. You die every time you fall asleep and you resurrect yourself every time you wake up.
Section Nine: You Have Free Will But There Is One Limitation, And Only One
There are arguably four main states of existence:
1) your consciousness surrounded by the physical universe and your physical body
2) the state of dreaming
3) your consciousness surrounded by nothing
4) nothingness with no consciousness.
There are other states or a blend of two states, but these are the four main ones. Your consciousness surrounded by the physical universe is life, this is where logical consistency rules. This is why mathematics, science, physics, chemistry, biology, evolution, and technology have the most predominant effects in this state of existence. Then there is the state of dreaming. Logical consistency is not required in this state of existence and your physical body has disappeared from existence as well. Your consciousness surrounded by nothing is death. Death is not truly death, it is nothing more than existence in it's most simplest and purest state. You don't have arms or legs or hands. You cannot turn your neck and look around. You have no physical body. You cannot smell, hear, taste, or touch. Breathing isn't necessary. You don't even see anything, the only thing you see is blackness all around you. The only thing you can do is think, and that's it. You are actually trapped, imprisoned, you come to the shocking realization that you have never moved. You are the unmoved mover. You have been in the same spot, the same location for all time; surrounded by an endless void of nothingness. You think you are going insane... and you want so desperately to escape. Your thoughts will start to become more coherent and more logical. You will feel your hands start to form. You will hear the flow of water all around you, you will feel warm and safe and content. You will hear muffled voices and other noises that you can't explain. You will push and pull at your surroundings and you will make yourself born and you will create the universe around you. You have chosen life because it is the only choice you have, you cannot choose nothingness with no consciousness. Nothingness with no consciousness is impossible, it doesn't exist. You cannot truly end your existence, pure thought cannot kill itself; therefore you do not have free will with regards to existing. You do not have a soul either, consciousness does not need a soul. Realize the profoundness of what I am about to say... it is impossible for you to not exist. You have no choice about your own existence, you have no choice whatsoever. Your consciousness cannot ever truly die, but you can make yourself forget this by making your physical body die. I need to make this clear distinction; you have free will within existence, but you don't have free will with regards to existing. Not even suicide sets you free.
You can enter into the other states of existence by falling asleep, meditation, using consciousness altering drugs, or by dying. You can only enter or leave the physical universe with logical consistency. Let's say you are a full grown man and you fall asleep and dream. You have left the physical universe. You can return to the physical universe as a full grown man by waking up. This is logically consistent. Let's say you die naturally of old age. You can only return to the physical universe by starting over as a newborn baby. That would be the only way to return to the physical universe that would be logically consistent. Keep in mind what is really happening, you are not actually entering or leaving the physical universe; you are simply changing the reality you are projecting.
As you go about your day, realize something... death exists just beyond what you observe. Go up to a door and look at it. What truly exists behind that door is death, nothingness, the endless void. But if you open the door your consciousness will create a stairway or another room, or the door will lead out to your yard and you can go outside and talk to people. Take your hand and put it 12 inches away from your face; just behind your hand, right behind it, is the infinite void.
Free will is a curious thing. From my own personal experiences, to truly exercise free will, you must focus or concentrate. Exercising free will requires effort. Often times we can find ourselves in embarassing situations. And often times we don't know how to react or handle the situation. When we look back on the situation in retrospect, we realize we truly had no control on the way we behaved. In those instances, we gave up free will. Now I say we have free will simply because it seems like we do. But in all honesty, thus far I have been unable to philosophically prove we have free will.
Section Ten: Everything Is One Thing
Everything is one thing, there are no separate objects or entities. When you watch a movie or a TV show, there are no separate entities; the screen is the only one thing. When you see a car moving from one end of the screen to the other, the car itself is not actually moving. It is the pixels that are changing. When the car is on the left side of the screen, those pixels are on. When the car is on the right side of the screen, the pixels on the left side are now off and the pixels on the right side are now on. On the screen that you are watching the movie on, the car is not a separate thing from the road that it is traveling on. The car is not a separate thing from the buildings it is passing by. It's all one thing, that one thing is the screen. Reality is the same way. Everything is one thing, there are no separate things. What makes it seem like there are separate things is our senses. Let's say you are sitting on a chair. In front of you is a table with a pencil on it. Your butt can feel the chair. You can reach forward and grab the pencil with your hand, you will feel the pencil in your fingers. You can rest your arms on the table and your arms will feel the table's flat surface. It is your senses that provide the illusion of separateness.
We have 5 physical senses; sight, sound, touch, taste, and smell. Now imagine that the only sense you have is sight; but the laws of physics still apply such as mass, gravity, and momentum. You can't hear, touch, taste, or smell. Imagine you are sitting on the chair again with the table and pencil in front of you. Your butt would not feel the chair. Now you reach forward and grab the pencil. You would see the pencil in your hand, but you wouldn't be able to feel the pencil. It would be as if you are watching a movie where a hand reaches forward and grabs a pencil, or it would be as if you were playing a first person POV computer game. There are no separate things, reality is just stationary pixels that never move. The pixels simply turn off and on or vary in intensity and color. Your body is nothing but pixels. Reality is just a big two dimensional screen, your senses make it appear three dimensional. This is the holographic principle that physicists are trying to understand mathematically.
Whenever you see an image on a TV or a computer monitor, the monitor has to keep drawing the image over and over again. In a single second of time, the monitor has redrawn the image 60 times. The smallest unit of time is the Planck time, it is believed to be a boundary condition for the physical universe. Planck time is defined as 5.39 x 10^(-44) of a second. There are more numbers after the 9, I am just providing three significant figures. If you divide 1 by this number you get 1.86 x 10^(+43). Your reality is just like a computer monitor. In one second of time, you have redrawn, recreated your reality 1.86 x 10^(+43) times. In one second of time, you have redrawn, recreated your own body 1.86 x 10^(+43) times. Here is the number fully written out,
18,600,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
In between the times that you are drawing your body, your body doesn't exist. Your body continuously "flickers" in and out of existence. Your reality continuously flickers in and out of existence.
Since we experience reality in three dimensions, let's extend the two-dimensional pixel analogy to a three-dimensional voxel. A voxel isn't a new word or anything, the term is already being used. Let's define a voxel as a unit of three-dimensional space that never actually moves, it always stays where it is for all eternity. And let's say all of reality is composed of these voxels that surround you. Just like the pixels on a screen never actually move, the voxels of reality never actually move either. Hold your hand in front of your face, now move your hand left to right. If reality is composed of voxels, you are not actually physically moving your hand left to right. You are changing the value of the voxel of where you want your hand to be next. You are also changing the value of the voxel of where your hand was before.
Scientists say the universe is a bazillion, gajillion light-years in size, you know... whatever. Here's how big the universe actually is. Stand on your tippy toes and stretch your arms, hands, and fingers straight up above your head. The biggest that the universe gets is the length of your body. That's it. It's all right in front of you, just out of reach. Always just out of reach.
Section Eleven: You Truly Are Everything And Everyone
If your consciousness is the only consciousness that exists, then that means you are everything and everyone. At any moment in time, you are everything that you perceive. You are the sun, you are the sky, you are the moon, you are the stars. Go to Arizona and stare at the Grand Canyon and wonder at its majesty, you are the Grand Canyon. Go to an industrialized area, you are the jagged edges of the buildings and the columns of black smoke and pollution. Witness two men fighting, you are the winner and the loser. Witness a father teaching his son how to throw a baseball, at that moment in time... you are love. Witness a group of racists, black or white, beat up a single man just because he doesn't look like them; at that moment in time... you are hate. The inept coworker that you can't stand is you. The bully who taunts you is you. Witness governments, corporations, and banks transfer wealth to themselves... at that moment in time... you are greed. Witness someone getting murdered, at that moment in time you are evil. Witness someone giving money to a homeless man, at that moment in time you are good. The halls of the building that you work at and walk through everyday, the halls are you. The alpha male that you hate is you. The hot girl you are trying to pickup is you. The socially awkward guy that you make fun of is you. The person who disagrees with your opinion is you. Are you a teacher? The student who you think is an idiot is you. Eat at a restaurant; the Mexican cooking your food is you, the waitress serving you the food is you. Go to a concert, every single person there is you. As unpleasant as it sounds, every killer running loose is you, every corrupt politician is you, every annoying christian is you, every radical muslim is you, the system is you. Whatever you perceive in the moment... is you. You are everything. You are constantly changing. The only thing that doesn't change is your body, which you are using as a frame of reference. Since you are everything, why would you want to pollute or destroy the environment? Since you are everyone, why would you want to harm or exploit another person? What you manifest about the world is how you are testing yourself. When I say you are everything and everyone, I don't mean it in a feel good new age spiritual harmony sort of way. You are everything and everyone because you create everything and everyone.
Section Twelve: The Awake Life Is Just As Much Of A Dream As When You Are Asleep And Dreaming
Let's compare these two states of existence, the awake life and the state of dreaming. Logical things can happen when you are dreaming, you can be talking to another person or taking a walk. But also illogical things can happen, you can be flying through the sky one moment and then all of a sudden find yourself frantically running through the halls of a university trying to find the lecture room where you have to take your final and realizing that if you miss your final you will fail the course and never graduate and your parents will become ashamed of you. I'm not referring to any type of personal circumstances of course. But when you wake up, you say to yourself, "Oh, it was just a dream and none of it was real" and you feel relieved. But as you experienced the dream, didn't you think it was real? While you were frantically running through the hallways, didn't you have the feeling of dread?
When you are awake your field of view, your field of vision is roughly around 180 degrees. But when you are dreaming your field of view is significantly smaller. When you are awake you are using your eyes to see, when you are dreaming you are using your consciousness to see. Whether you use your eyes to see or use your consciousness to see; it doesn't matter, you still exist. When you are awake you simply give yourself more awareness. You can see more, you can taste more, hear more, touch more, smell more, think more, and even remember more. When you are dreaming, you simply have less awareness. You also have more free will when you are awake.
The awake life really is nothing more than a dream. But it is a different type of dream. It is a dream with logical consistency and consequences, and it is a dream you can keep coming back to over and over again. And it is a dream where you have more awareness and more details. When you talk to someone in your dreams, you think it is real at that moment you are talking to the person. When you wake up, you realize you didn't actually talk to that person. When you are awake, you know and realize you are truly the only consciousness when you are dreaming. Realize you are also truly the only consciousness when you are awake. When you talk to someone when you are dreaming; you are the only one who is self-aware, you are the only one with consciousness. When you talk to someone when you are awake; you are still the only one who is self-aware, you are still the only one with consciousness. When you wake up from a dream, you realize that you were creating everything while you were dreaming. When you are awake, you are still creating everything. The main differences between being awake and dreaming are that you can sense more details when you are awake and there is more logical consistency when you are awake. Despite the differences, the awake life is still just a dream. Walk through a park and look at the trees, walk through the hallways of the building where you work, and realize you are dreaming. Have you noticed that the memories of a real life event you had a long time ago don't seem any different from a dream you had a long time ago? They're both essentially the same thing, a real life event is no different from a dream.
Section Thirteen: Where Do Your Thoughts Come From?
As I have stated, you are creating the universe and what you manifest about the universe is based on probability. We have five physical senses; hearing, touch, taste, smell, and sight. Five senses, five types of perception. You want to think of your thoughts as a type of perception as well. Hearing something confirms your existence. Touching something, tasting something, smelling something, and seeing something all confirm your existence. Having thoughts confirms your own existence does it not? Your thoughts are your sixth sense, but it is not physical. Let's focus on the sense of sight. Go to New York City. New York is very cosmopolitan and it is a true melting pot of different races and ethnicities. Walk down a busy city corner and you will see someone who is African, immediately behind him you will see someone who is European, and after him, someone who is Asian, then Middle-Eastern, etc. Can you directly and consciously control the race of the person you are manifesting in front of you? No, you can't. When you walk through a shopping mall, can you directly and consciously control the stores that are there? No, you can't. You can't control the thoughts you manifest either. You manifest your thoughts in exactly the same way you manifest your physical surroundings and the people around you. Your thoughts are an aspect of the universe. This means even your thoughts are an illusion. The thoughts you manifest are probabilistic based on the situation. If you are hungry then the most likely thought you will manifest is, "What should I have for lunch?" You can of course control your thoughts to a certain degree by focusing or meditation. Just as virtual particles pop into existence out of nowhere, out of nothing; your thoughts just pop into existence out of nowhere as well. Because you cannot control the thoughts you manifest, there is no need to judge yourself if you have evil thoughts now and then. You just accept the evil thoughts as a part of you... and you let them pass. The more education and enlightenment you have will reduce the probability that you will manifest murderous thoughts.
Section Fourteen: Consciousness Altering Drugs
Psychedelics are a major rite of passage amongst many shamanistic traditions, enabling the user to embark upon a spiritual journey. They can have very powerful effects on you; they are to be respected, so do your research before trying them. Psychedelics are not recreational drugs, you only want to do them once a year at most. Psychedelics are very hard to explain to someone who has never taken them. One of the most commonly used psychedelics is magic mushrooms, scientifically they are known as psilocybin. When your journey starts, the first effect is that the physical universe and the state of dreaming will blend and morph into each other. They will reveal a world that you never knew existed. This is what shamans, and drug addicts, refer to as the spirit world. Personally I think it's a higher dimensional existence, I define the "spirit world" as the world always unseen. But back to using psychedelics, you will finally understand and truly know what beauty is, and you will never see the world in the same way again. You will never again be the same person as you were before. The journey always starts off pleasant, but make no mistake... you WILL face your inner demons, whatever they may be. You will face them, you will confront them, and you will be forced to deal with them. Psychedelics function as a type of mirror, you will finally see yourself for who you truly are; and you may not like what you see. The use of psychedelics requires a certain level of maturity, willpower, and resolve; only take them when you feel you are ready. Using psychedelics is called "tripping", you are going on a trip, you are taking a journey. Don't eat anything for about 6 hours before you trip. Your first trip should be someplace private, where you feel safe. Your first trip will not give you enlightenment, it will purge you of your inner demons and that is all. All subsequent trips after the first will give you enlightenment or some aspect of it. For your second trip, you want to do it on a bright sunny summer day. Wake up early and don't eat breakfast. Take the psychedelics around 10:00 am. Go outside and take a walk, don't be afraid, you'll be fine. The things you see will amaze you. The sky, clouds, grass, trees, plants, buildings, architecture, concrete, roads, cars, people; everything will be beautiful. The sky will still look like the sky, trees will still look like trees, people will still look like people; but you will now have a different perspective. Do not deny yourself this experience, it truly is something wonderful. Your thoughts can often be scattered under the influence of psychedelics, bring something with you that will help you to focus. Take a piece of string, tie one end to something a little bit heavier, and just keep twirling it as you embark upon your journey. You will meet many people along the way, but realize this is a journey you must take alone.
Try marijuana too. Unlike psychedelics, there are no cool visual effects. But you will be able to focus and ponder your existence. Marijuana also helps with meditation and makes it easier to enter into altered states of consciousness.
Depending on where you live, there may be government laws that make the use of these substances illegal. You created those laws and you manifested them in the legal system. You created those laws because you are afraid. There are laws against rape and murder. You created those laws because you are afraid of being raped or murdered. There is no need to fear consciousness altering drugs, you are the one that created them. Ayahuasca, MDMA, and DMT are also psychedelics that you might consider trying. I have no experience with them however so I don't know what they're like. I've only done marijuana and psilocybin.
Section Fifteen: One Thing To Realize About Meditation
Meditation takes practice. If you've never meditated before it might take you years, but don't give up. Meditation can seem pointless, there doesn't seem to be a goal except to reduce stress. Go outside on a really sunny day and close your eyes. You'll notice that it won't be completely dark. Even though you have closed your eyes, you can still see a certain degree of brightness because some photons from the sun are going through the membrane of your eye-lid and they are hitting the rods and cones in the back of your eye. If you are a beginner, you want to meditate at night with all the lights off. When you first close your eyes it will be dark. Here is the key thing to realize, you are seeing the dark with your physical eyeballs. You are still using your eyes. One goal of meditation is to make your physical eyeballs disappear from existence so that you can "see" with your consciousness instead.
